No one read IT! :D

Comic days have made it to the front page news of my life now. The one thought that constantly runs through my mind every single moment of my life : There's really a sweet pain wen you are all alone by yourself. Dont know what's got into me. But I really like it wen ppl stay away from me now. It's not a nice feeling, but it is comfortable. I don't have to make small talks to them or please them, thereby wasting my time doing something totally irrelevant to my mood or time. I think I am turning into a masochist. Things were not like this before. I used to be happy being with people, making friends, going out and enjoying company of my friends and the people around me. Now, I find it unpleasant when people come up to me to talk to me and try to be nice to me. I can't bear to hang around them for longer than 5 minutes.I find myself always looking for one excuse or the other to run away from people or keep them a distance.. Life gets you someday. And I think I caught that insane moment in me. Suddenly m craving loneliness and withdrawal. Now nothing except my family matters to me most. Irony of the thing is, I am barely close to them either. wow! Am I pitying myself or am I coming in terms with the loner inside me?